1. |
starve
04:00
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sustenance
in the hand
flowing through like so much sand now
sorry eyes
diverting mine
'til the pain runs down my spine now
you rip the flesh from my fingers
you rip the flesh from my tattered fingers
you rip the flesh from my fingers
take them in
spit them out
tell me what your life's about now
suck me in
spit me out
tell me what your life's about now
you rip the flesh from my fingers
you rip the flesh from my ragged fingers
you rip the flesh from my fingers
worthless breath
i'm breathing in
gaping hole i filled with sin now
masterpiece
of funeral pyre
pity me and light that fire now
you rip the flesh from my fingers
you rip the flesh from my blistered fingers
you rip the flesh from my fingers
tell me that i'm wrong
i know what you've become
tell me that i'm wrong
i know what you become
you rip the flesh from my fingers
you rip the flesh from my tattered fingers
you rip the flesh from my fingers
you rip the flesh from my fingers
you rip the flesh from my fucking fingers
you rip the flesh from my fingers
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2. |
indelible
06:52
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take me to the edge push me over watch me fall
like it was everything to me like it was nothing at all to you
pull me back up 'til i'm safely inside
when i get to the bottom i go back to the top and i hide
it's late and i'm weary and slightly delirious
the people i pissed off are starting to sneer at us
so slink out the back door and into the car
go get lost in the desert and turn up in far, far away
and i'm sick of your smile and i'm sick of your eyes
when you told me your truths i believed they were lies
still i sat and i listened and waited for something
i never did find it so i did the dumb thing
and simply ignored that the hollow was empty
the drinks that were flowing still didn't exempt me
from stopping it there almost dead in its tracks
but i kept on the move and i never looked back
'cause the face in the mirror just never would let me
the sky was so black on the day that you met me
the temperature falling, a chill in the air
and the needle was calling but nobody cared
it was love at first sight but you admit it was lust
and there's power in blood and there's power in trust
if you're wielding a knife and you're holding a heart
make a gentle incision then tear it apart
like that time in that room that was spinning and red
was it paint was it light were we high were we dead?
and our mouths were so sore from just laughing too much
and our hands were so sore from just touching too much
and our eyes were so sore from the smoke and the haze
though it felt like just hours it was really just days
and i know you deny all the words that you said
though they never were spoken i felt them instead
and i lost all the feeling in both of my eyes
'cause we lay on the floor and we both criticized
all the cracks in the ceiling, the lack of the feeling
the depth and the breadth of the shock sent me reeling
through time to a place where the space was all wrong
though it started out right it just took me too long
just to finish a sentence and ask for forgiveness
the angels are laughing at angels that did this
we woke in the morning all tired and stale
with vessels constricting with hearts set to fail
and the rest is a blur that i choose to repress
with a knife in my back and a stain on your dress
and the guy in my face who i don't even know
while the day into night and the rain into snow whispers
carry me back to the place i belong and
play me some music and sing me a song
'til the wounds start to heal and the flesh starts to crawl
like the end of the world like it's nothing at all
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3. |
whole
04:40
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will we ever be whole again?
will we ever make amends?
eye to blinded eye we see
bury all hostility
change the future once again
change it back until the end
i like who i am you see
i don't like who you made me
sleeping in the dirty bed
one more time to calm my head
restless in my troubled mind
thinking terror one more time
i reach out to take your hand
holding ghosts as if i can
look me in the knowing eye
one more lonely lullaby
stains and mud will wash away
scars indelible will stay
only you and only me
endless possibilities
join me on this road of strife
in my back you'll find a knife
please remove it hand it here
i will keep it safe my dear
you'll know pleasure knowing pain
never feel that way again
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4. |
closure
07:08
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here at my door
you came home
from a suicide
you took my hand
on a cold november day
wipe it all away
then in my arms
so complete
never letting go
come take my strength
for it's all i have to give
use it how you will
no one loves you more
crying on the floor
i'd give up my life for you, my precious
no one's proved it more
it's all worth fighting for
i'd give up my life for you
know that the past
is the past
it will fade away
here is a piece
of my heart to sew to yours
make it whole again
take that first step
don't be scared
we can heal the wounds
no one loves you more
crying on the floor
i'd give up my life for you, my precious
no one's proved it more
it's all worth fighting for
i'd give up my life for you
watch as we walk
through the years
growing whole again
here to the end
arm in arm forever we
going home again
no one loves you more
crying on the floor
i'd give up my life for you, my precious
no one's proved it more
it's all worth fighting for
i'd give up my life for you
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5. |
cruelty
05:45
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look at me
lay your hands on me
i'm human and fragile
i've made my mistakes
so push me through
'cause you have too
i've taken all i can take
with no respect
you treat us now
and i know that's exactly how
you want it to be it's
cruelty
cruelty!
take me
hold me
i'm scared
of your intent
suffering
as the world dissolves
i'm naked and helpless
and so out of place
so scared of change
you rearrange
the shelter keeping us safe
communication ceasing now
and i know that's exactly how
you want it to be it's
cruelty
cruelty!
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6. |
emotionless
06:36
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looking down
from my ivory tower
serpentine
in my final hour
strike me blind
stain me red
keep the bad thoughts
from my head (it hurts)
nothing good
to control the manic
nothing fear
to avoid the panic
anger gone and
pleasure dead
keep the demons
from my head (it hurts)
body fine
the nerves still fire
broken mind
cut across the wire
close my eyes
selective hearing
all that's real
slowly disappearing
puncture wound
lick the blood
holding back
the coming flood
aborted words
no confrontation
suffer from
your manipulation
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7. |
ether
05:17
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there's nothing left inside my heart
my soul is anxious to depart
it's written in between the lines
in secrets you will never find
you whisper hate into my ear
espousing all my untold fears
you took the haven that we found
and selfishly you tore it down
the only thing that keeps me here is him
when i was younger i thought
this was all i wanted i was wrong
i wish myself away from here
a tragedy that's all to clear
with no more feelings left to share
and all the guilt i'll come to bare
the only thing that keeps me here is him
when i was younger i thought
this was all i wanted i was wrong
but here we are now and you've
taken all i wanted all along
breathing in so deeply now
there's spit upon a worthless vow
i guess i finally know my place
so pull this rag right off my face
the only thing that keeps me here
is certainly not you my dear
the only thing that keeps me here is him
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8. |
kama
05:44
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every time i look at you i know
every time i'm next to you i know
you feel the same way too
you feel the same way i do
you feel the same way too
you feel the same
i can see it in your eyes
i can feel it in your soul
i can taste it on your lips
no self-control
every time i call to you i know
every time i'm touching you i know
you feel the same way too
you feel the same way i do
you feel the same way too
you feel the same
i can feel it in your kiss
i can taste it on your skin
i can hear it in your sigh
let it begin
every time i'm breathing you, i know
every time i'm needing you, i know
you feel the same way too
you feel the same way i do
you feel the same way too
you feel the same
i can taste it in your blood
i can smell it in your sweat
i can feel it in your hips
we're not done yet
every time i fall on you i know
every time i'm inside you i know
you feel the same way too
you feel the same way i do
you feel the same way too
you feel the same
i can taste it on your lips
i can feel it in your touch
i can smell it in your hair
i need too much
i can see it in your eyes
i can feel it in your soul
i can taste it on your lips
no self-control
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9. |
the pit
05:07
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when does this hole become a pit?
is it the depth or what i fill it with?
the innocent people who pay for your crime
abandoned all hope have i
when does this soul cease to exist?
when waking moments are monotonous
betrayal and pity i see in your eyes
how selfish is your disguise
when does this life become a waste?
is it the blood or that i take a taste?
the mind-numbing stillness inside of this hole
together to hell we go
when does this act become a crime?
is it remorse or am i out of line?
the future is certain but i could be wrong
remember that when i'm gone
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10. |
torture me color blind
05:23
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red walls in the red room
won't change what i see
yellow are the bruises
pain can blind me no more
gold sun shines for others
draw the curtains please
blue earth that i stand on
carry it's weight on my back
green floor in the ocean
cover me with the sea
grey soul in existence
haunting memory again
white light from the heavens
illuminates my failures for me
brown dust stinging my eyes
nothing grows here at all
black blood stains the doorway
showers me with relief
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11. |
screaming in chemical
05:21
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there she goes down under like a feather in the maelstrom,
to alleviate, illuminate, obliterate, suffocate my soul
can you see her falling like a stone without a prayer
and she will mesmerize, hypnotize, paralyze, criticize my world
where did all this come from
yesterday she seemed just fine
where did all this come from
i don't know
has she given up well i assume she has no reason
to move on inside, or try to hide, i can't abide a liar in my heart
will this be the be all end all ending that she hopes
for i am almost there, my thoughts are bare, it's hard to care when everything is numb
where did all this come from
yesterday she seemed just fine
where did all this come from
i don't know
just another day now there is tension in the air so thick
it makes me choke, on fumes and smoke, while you invoke the name burns my mind
here i stand exposed with no protection from her tempest
as it rages on, i'm just a pawn, the bond is gone and freedom is so cold
where did all this come from
yesterday she seemed just fine
where did all this come from
i don't know
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12. |
occluded
04:55
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we stare behind the eyes and see the evil no one wants to see
we travel time and space to witness inhumane atrocities
we are the brethren of the damned
we are the keepers of the land
we are the children of the light
exploited, extorted
assimilated we survive
the shadows follow our commands and bring us knowledge unforeseen
so unobtrusive dressed in grey we are the ordinary men
we are the watchers of the tomb
we are the guardians of the womb
we are the noises in the night
distended, dissected
with pieces scattered from on high
the centuries pass away while everyone around us turns to dust
and like a thief here in the night the answers catch you by surprise
across the skin with razor blades
to steal the promise that we made
to keep the secrets close at hand
ignoring, imploring
for just a few more worthless hours
advancing evening is the perfect time to hide a face away
an incantation so that no on here remembers what they saw
unhinge the soul and tap the mind
to leave this other plane behind
and search the ether on a string
unyielding, unfeeling
your world where nothing's as it seems
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13. |
goodbye gaia
05:17
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goodbye gaia, i need to say it now
there won't be time when we're all very busy running 'round
the water keeps on rising while the clouds are building low
the ash is covering your face, while the trenches scar your brow
today could be your very last day
for tomorrow could come and
take you away from me
goodbye gaia, i hate to feel this way
a pessimistic atmosphere that just won't fade away
the temperature is rising still the snow falls everyday
astronomers identified that n.e.o. today
today could be your very last day
and so i'm living
like it's your very last day for me
goodbye gaia, you need to understand
you can not take much more of this and i can't hold your hand
while the wars are running rampant and nobody gives a damn
please wipe away your tears you see this wasn't what we planned for
today could be your very last day
why aren't we living
like it's your very last day for me
goodbye gaia, you always were the one
to take my simple breath away and leave me slightly stunned
with your enigmatic beauty and your warm days in the sun
but when you leave, please make it quick i don't i could stand for
today to be your very last day
and so i'm running
like it's your very last day for me
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14. |
sediment
06:58
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feeling
nothing
empty
dangerous
lure me
tease me
hurt me
isolate
abuse is all i ever really get from you
and now it's all i ever really want from you
staring
nowhere
caring
obsolete
call me
taunt me
slice me
damaging
shit is all i ever really get from you
and now it's all i ever really want from you
pain is all i ever really get from you
and now it's all i ever really want from you
clinging
hoping
needing
positive
falling
hopeless
needless
negative
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